Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Are you just drifting through life?

John has been out of town the past couple of days so I've been living the single life partying and going out until the wee hours of the morning!!!!
Unless you call spending an hour at the dog park, picking up some Kroger sushi and a cosmo mag, and watching real housewives reruns all night "living the single life".
And if you do call that "the single life", maybe thats why you're still single? 

Anywho... I was flipping through the cosmo, 
(with smokin hot Kate Upton on the cover...girl can do NO wrong)
when I came across an article titled "Is Your Life Where You Want It To Be?".

This really got me thinking.  Sometimes I feel like I'm just drifting through life, living with the circumstances, and not really making any choices for myself.  I'm living in a city because my boyfriend lives here, not because I love the city.  I'm working at a job because I finally got hired, not because it was my first choice. I like to think I'm not alone here either.  It's so easy to get into a routine. We all work, have families, or have something we need to accomplish every day.

Here's a (typical) week day in my life:
7:30- get out of bed, walk to the couch, turn on tv, get on computer, check emails
8:00-make some coffee
8:30- begin whatever work I have lined up for that day (while sitting on the couch)
8:45- let Cash out because he's whining at the door
8:50- let Cash in because he's whining at the door
(repeat this sequence 10 times throughout the day)
9-Noon- social media work, email, call clients, check facebook, twitter, blog
Noon-?- Go to meetings if there are any set up for the day, if not...take a nap or catch up on recorded tv
4:30- John gets home
6:00- take Cash to the park
7:00-10:00- eat dinner, watch tv
10:00- go to bed

Are you riveted by the excitement?
Yeah, me either.

This is where I need to change. 
 I need more ambition in my life. I need to do more things because I choose to, not because I'm supposed to.  
I've just been offered a huge project at work.  So huge, that if this goes off the way I hope it does, I'll make my entire years salary through this one event... HUGE.
It's no secret that I have little to no confidence in myself.  I've always had the mentality that 'if I make fun of myself first, no one else will have the opportunity'.
When my boss told me he wanted me to head up this project, a part of me wanted to cry.
Thoughts of 'I can't do this', 'why me?', and 'this is too much for me' came racing though my mind.
But a little part of me said, "this is where you change".
So I accepted the challenge, and I'm taking it head on.

I'm making a choice to do this because it will be all mine.  
This is something I'm doing for myself.
And it's about time!

Do you ever feel like you're in a rut? What are some things you do to knock yourself out of it?

Last night I was feeling extra down, until I found this wonderful video.... If this doesn't make your day better I don't know what will!
(and if you're reading at work *shame on you:)* this video has no sound so feel free to watch!)

I hope ya'll have a great Wednesday!
Get out there and do something for YOU!


Amber said...

What a great opportunity! You can do it girl. I know what you mean about falling into a routine and taking the first job you were offered. I did when I moved to where Brad's job brought us... I don't love it but I don't hate it. Basically it is not what I want my future to be. I hope this new deal works out for you!

Nikki said...

I think you're going to be great!!! I live in a town I don't love because my job and hubby's jobs are here, so I feel ya. Good luck :)

The Pink Growl said...

I think we all feel like this sometimes! But it's always good to re-think your daily routine and try to mix things up.

Jessica @ Here(and)Now said...

You go girl - I hope this gives you the confidence boost that you need to pursue more "I do x,y,z because I love it" projects!
I get in ruts all the time - especially when it gets to this time of year when I wake up and go home from work in the dark (de-pressing!)... it helps me to set aside a Saturday and cross everything off my list that I want to do... and yes, getting chores crossed off my to-do list makes me happy... it takes all kinds!

Lauren said...

Good luck with your job at work! I know you will do a great job! :)